2 New Albums!
Newcastle 2006 and Myall Lakes/Seal Rocks
So yeah..updating, I am total shit at that.
So the past few weeks have been really good. It’s funny because it has been amazing to see everyone I have missed so much but then there is still that part of me that is really missing AZ. The last time I was here all I was really leaving was Jason and a few good friends, this time I left a beautiful life. I had made and rekindled the kind of friendships novels are written about and a life that some people would envy. Yeah my job wasn’t that awesome but everything else was better than I would have ever imagined. One thing I really have to keep in mind is that things are supposed to change. If I would have stayed my life would not have developed like it should have. Could I really stay working at SL? Yeah, I could have, but what about school? Things are changing. I have to change with them. Even when I do come back to AZ, things won’t be the same. I just have to look at it as a chapter in my life and move onto the next.
So I finally have made some decisions. I am moving to Perth, West Australia. I know this wasn’t really in the game plan at first. I had planned on living in Brisbane and starting at the Uni. When I finally made it to Australia I realized how hard it was going to be to move to a cit where I didn’t know anyone, get a house, get a job, and just restart my life. After consulting with just about everyone and having some pressure I realized that moving to Perth is an easier option with similar rewards. Perth is gorgeous, the economy is booming, and they have a good Masters program. I will be near my mother and all of my “aunties”. There are garages of furniture for me to pick from, a huge selection of jobs, and a few friends. It was a hard choice for me to leave Newcastle. I was thinking about staying here for the summer and living with good friends from Uni was very appealing, but all I was doing was avoiding the inevitable. I would eventually need to find a job (there are none in Newcastle) and move on with my life. I need to be near a good uni with a program I am interested in and I need a job. Perth has jobs and a Masters of Community Development at Murdoch University.
I think things would have been different if I would have had someone moving with me, it’s just easier when you are not alone. Maybe that would have changed things. Who knows!? All I know is that in a few days time I will be on a plane to Perth. If I hate it, oh well. I will move again. I am not keen on the idea of moving anytime in the future, as I have been moving for the past few years knowing I only have a limited amount of time. I am ready to settle somewhere. I am ready to unpack. You have no idea.
When I first got back to Newcastle, I was a mess. I was sad about leaving Thailand, depressed about leaving the US and really didn’t know where I would be living next. It was strange, I was always moments from tears. I did really well at not crying and figured out how to suppressed the lump in my throat. It would be the strangest of things that would se it off. For example, the girl at the bank asking if my move to Australia was permanent or the check out person saying “Oh your American, are you here for a holiday?” Sometimes I just wanted them to shut up and stop asking me questions. What business is it of theirs? I just wanted them to leave me alone.
Now I have thrown myself into accepting my fate, stop all my internal bitching, and spend some quality time with my friends and family. I have been going out a lot. It’s great to be back in a country where the bars don’t close at 2AM, but that does lead me to stay out until 5AM. Whatever, I am on vacation. A few friends are now djing at a club so it was really good to be out and have them play all the fun dancie (sp?) music that I have missed so much. I am having a good time with everyone but spending most of my time with either Caro and those amazing girls or Alicia. Stu comes around a bit too but isn’t into going out so much anymore and prefers to fade away to his girlfriend at home. Totally understandable. He actually has given us a few good nights out.
I am flying out of Sydney on Tuesday night, but Caro, Stu (I have to run this by him as it was just decided a few minutes ago) and I are meeting up with some of the girls to go to the Sydney Zoo during the day and then to see me off at the airport! I am going to a pub crawl tomorrow night and then probably out to somewhere on Saturday. Big times ahead.
